- Wed Jun 21, 2023 6:51:09 pm
#76371
I feel like I've been letting the readers down! I know that it's been some time since I've like fully posted but a bitch has been in a full fucking rut and finding time to write has been more difficult than lately. This is also just flying so fast and then with the merge hitting, it's kinda like a free-for-all and idk what has open book on my forehead that everyone wants to come talking to me to ask me questions about what's happening this round. Especially the OG Kallpa. Let me set the scene before I get into answering questions, I suppose, just to kinda give where my head is.
The round that JR ended up coming over, we weren't sure if he was going to stay on our tribe or anything. That name 'ambassador' had me and a couple of other people thinking that they weren't going to be permanent fixtures on our tribe. JR came to me on the night that he swapped over and he seemed very chatty with me for the most part. The way that others were making it sound, he wasn't giving them as much or talking to them in depth? I'm not sure, but I kept up conversation until I decided it was time to disappear for the evening. I've been doing that a lot lately because I've just been tired and ready to fall asleep and people like to talk until late in the midnight hour and my elderly body and shitty attitude cannot. Imagine our surprise to realize that yesterday/last night, we merged! It's exciting but like, people that I wasn't expecting to be here are here and it's a few of them that I'm not sure how I'm going to manage moving forward. TBH I thought Sara would be gone, I thought Heather would be here without Sara at least but now it's like both of them are here, our whole tribe is here and that's got me feeling like holy fucking shit, what is about to be the outcome?
1. Are you planning to stick with some or all of your OG tribe? Who do you hope sticks around?
I'm planning to stick with the OG tribe for the time being, just because I feel like it makes the most sense. I don't have any ill will or like hard desire to get anyone out. NGL, I know that there are a lot of people playing a lot harder than I am right now and I don't think it's a bad thing that I'm being relatively lax. Everyone can spin circles and I've had my fill of being overwhelmed lately lmao I can stand to not go down that road anymore. I think that as far as the options on the table from the Kallpa tribe, we have JR, Jaime, Leslie and Erik. Personally, I was fine with getting rid of Erik because he was the person who had the least amount of conversation with me but come to find out, he's on a whole different continent. Not that I found this out directly from him, I had to find that out through other people. No me gusta. But I hear that Sara threw out Jaime's name. Bitch, we did a fucking DOODLE POLL or something like that in order to figure out who we were going to vote. Are we serious? In all my years of ORGing I've never had an alliance send out a poll to get the best data for how we are going to vote and like, are we supposed to stick by this? Honestly, Jaime seems nice. She's talkative, tbh all of the girls from OG Kallpa are. They are fighting for their life though so I definitely get it and there's a part of me that feels extremely guilty for sitting pretty right now. I just think it's better for me to let other people rock the boat because they're going to want to! If I get thrown out of the boat, I won't be too upset but I know it's something I can avoid at least for a round or two. I'm trying to hang in there! Leslie, I'm iffy on her. She seems like a nice lady and she said she's pregnant which I love, tbh this is the most women I think I've ever played with in my actual fucking life. I come from a very dick hungry background of ORGers LMFAOOOO. Anyway, Leslie is aight. She can stay. I do like JR, he seems relatively normal but apparently he stirred the pot last night with some bullshit story that Heather was floating around and by word of mouth it got back to her or something and she flipped out? I really couldn't follow the fucking story if I'm being frank, I felt like people were getting upset for no reason or like, am I devoid of emotion and just not as pressed as everyone else? On the next episode of Pachamama Ponderosa...
All in all, Jaime is gonna leave for the time being? I would rather get rid of Erik because Leslie and Jaime have pulled on the heartstrings but I probably won't get my way and I'm not too upset about it...for now. I am realizing that there are a lot of people who want to be in control even if they're trying to ACT like they don't want to be and I don't necessarily need to fight for that. Not just now. I'm on cruise control. Moving on~*
2. Or, now that the tribes have merged, are you considering a change in allegiance? Are you concerned that delaying your decision could result in being betrayed first?
Hard mf hitting questions LMAO. I think that I'm not considering a change just yet because idk who I can trust. I don't know who I can trust from EITHER tribe if I'm being completely fucking honest. I haven't been to tribal yet! People could just be blowing me smoke for the last week and a half or two or however long it's been and I could be voted out tonight. I haven't voted once so I really don't know what's good. Come back to me after this tribal is over. I think that delaying my decision could be a fault of mine and I know people are going to turn on me. I would need to turn on them sooner. There's a part of me that wants to throw caution to the wind and switch things up or just vote people randomly and throw hinky votes for the fuck of it, that's what I do when I'm "bored" or just trying to add a different layer to the game. I do that moreso when I feel backed into a corner. I don't feel that way yet, but I know that when that does happen or when I feel like it's about to happen, that's when I'm ready to flip. But idk who those flipping ass allies would be. Everyone's showing that they crack under pressure and everyone doesn't seem to have a clear conscience about how they are wanting to move or make decisions. Myself included, LMAO but at the same token, I like to kinda be led instead of doing the leading. It seems like I'm going to have to do the bending soon, it's only right on this last few days of Pride month.
I'm not concerned right now, though. I'm not worried until next week. That sounds cocky and I could die tonight but so be it. It's a problem for future Evvie. I'm not sure who I actually want to be with aside from Xander, Shan and Abe by default. Deshawn makes it five for now~
3. What is your perspective on the Xander screenshot situation? Has it influenced your inclination to align yourself with him, either positively or negatively?
I was so unbothered by that and everyone was BLOWING it up yesterday. Like yes JR, people are talking about you! Xander AND SARA just got caught talking about you. Let's be real here, Sara is just as much to blame for being in this conversation LMFAOOOOOO even though she's an innocent bystander I am placing blame on her! I know that if you're seen to be attached to Xander right now, there could be an air of judgment being thrown your way if you're super close to him. Idk if anyone knows how close we are for the time being and I'm trying to keep it that way as long as possible. He's always been my #1, I'm not going to throw him away for this. I do recognize him and Abe do not pay attention to things though, they been making a few mistakes or just being spiral-y at times. it happens to the best of us so I don't feel any type of way about it. I do think it's going to affect him in the longer term, but people may forget about it in a round or two.
4. Abraham and Xander won the aMazing Race challenge. What are your thoughts about that? Were you hoping to vote either of them off?
I was happy that they won! They deserved! I sat here, opened the image, tried to trace the maze a few times and I fucking failed. I was just waiting for someone to win the challenge, honestly. I'm glad that it was the two people in my main alliance! Mazes have never been my type of challenge in all my years of gaming because my eyes and the lines just kinda blur together and it's hard to do it on this computer. Them winning is great because both of them are paranoid Patricks and it'll stop them from worrying votes will come their way. They're still gonna spiral about the vote, OF COURSE, but at least they know that they can't be taken out. I'm super excited for them. Keep putting targets on your backs, my friends. Let little Mx Evvie slide through and get to the end by just being so neutral!
5. What do you want to tell your fans that we haven’t asked about yet?
OMG I HAVE FANS?! LMAO honestly I feel like I've been a rollercoaster of a player and I don't know what else to add here. I don't have anything new or exciting going on and need to snap back in before I become toast. I love you all, seriously. I pay attention to those likes lmao. Thanks for reading.
We also have bonus questions from the lurkers!
Lurker Michael asks, “With the merge, how do you plan on using your new connections to your advantage?”
I'm hoping that when the time is right and it's time to flip on someone, I can use them to my advantage. Personally, I'm trying to assess how I feel about everyone at this rate, especially the new people that I'm here to work with. I think that I had a relationship to everyone on my original tribe so for the time being, I feel okay with the majority of them. Now, adding so many new people to the mix, idk. I had feelings about meeting new people and nothing is really serving me what I need to be served right now. Everyone is great, don't get me wrong! But I haven't found my one true love in general amongst the new people I'm being introduced to.
Aurora wants to know, “Do you think there will be a Pagonging?”
I think OG Ancha wants to believe or act like there will be one, but I highly doubt it. I could see a Heather/Shan/Sara get sniped before all of the OG Kallpa are gone. I hate that it's all women who are on the chopping block, or the ones that have had names getting floated around. Hell, even Xander could cop some votes based on his exposure.
From John, “You will no longer be able to rely on tribal immunity, how do you plan to win the game?”
I plan to win the game by sliding through the cracks and not being seen as TOO strong but not being seen as TOO weak. Make people feel indifferent about me and then make them realize how it's a viable strategy to get to the end while being able to show that you don't have to do all the crazy paranoid shit and things can work out. LOL I'll read this back in a few rounds and yell at myself like BITCH WHAT ARE YOU THINKING LMFAOOOOO. Maybe my killer instinct will kick in really soon~
I hope I feel better soon, my mood disorder has been whooping my ass and you all deserve better from me! I do have a question from Mike that I need to answer still as well.
