- Fri Jun 30, 2023 11:13:31 am
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Mx. Evvie has turned on their radio station that they listen to every Friday when they remember to help focus on this writing. (okay I just sat and my ADHD beat my ass and I lost 15 min but whatever!) I cannot believe it's the final 6 right now. Honestly, I have been working hard to get to this point in the game, and I've managed to make it here literally from surviving off the backs of everyone else doing wonderful things in challenges while also making sure that I have great relationships with people that I locked in. I haven't won an individual immunity yet but that's perfectly fine. I think this game seems like the type of people or players that will respect someone who made moves and fought their way to the end and I'm not sure if I'm showing up on peoples' radars for making moves at this rate. I know that people have been trying to peg where my true allegiances lie, and most seem to believe that I'm attached at the hip to Abe and Deshawn, which is perfectly fine? I know they are going to try and swipe at them first before swiping at me and honestly, without the right players to make that move, it honestly can't happen. I guess I have to see how I want to cruise through this last week of the game. I know it's going to be an uphill battle but...I'm committed to trying to figure it out. I also need to feel like I'm playing for myself a bit more, and I need to craft what that actually looks like at this stage of the game. Let's get into some questions, though.
That tribal... a split 4-3 vote, hardly any whispers, Jeff's questions, etc. How do you make of all of that, as well as Shan leaving?
The fact that there were no whispers going on forreal let me know that the plan was going to stick to the plan. That's one thing that I've noticed, if there's already a plan that's going around with specific people before tribal, there really aren't that many whispers going on during tribal because people don't want to spill the plan or allow anyone to try and flip. The only way that these moves have worked and I've voted correctly the last few tribals, every single one honestly, is because I've been able to be in the know with what's going on and doubly confirm. Jeff's questions were on point, as always. I think he's trying to drop hints for people to read between the lines and I catch what he's throwing down but of course, I like to feign as much ignorance as I can to ensure that people feel like I'm aloof. The vote was 4-3 and that was one of the first times I feel like it was that close. I wasn't in on the plan to get Deshawn and I heard that Shan specifically told JR not to tell me. There's a part of me that would have been willing to make that move, but I think had I flipped on Deshawn at that tribal council, I would have lost Xander 100% and Abe would not have been happy. This part of the game, it should hopefully be simple to get the Leslie/JR duo out and then be able to get Deshawn one of these rounds. Part of me thinks it could be a good move to get him this upcoming round with JR/Leslie and maybe Xander or even Abe would go for it just to get him out the way. Abe does believe that JR is the bigger challenge threat and he needs to go, but what if we end up having Deshawn win at F5? Then what? I'm getting ahead of myself right now though.
I was a lotta bummed going into the Shan vote that I had to get rid of her, but she didn't let me in on the Deshawn plan so overall, that let me feel like she was willing to go against me or at least leave me out of the loop for her own personal game so I don't feel as guilty about it. I know she wasn't coming for me but I needed to do this to secure my allies and also make Xander happy since him and Shan never saw eye to eye. Gaggy that each part of the trio has gotten snatched each tribal council back to back.
F6 means we're getting near the end of the game. What is the most important part of your endgame to you?
The most important part of the endgame is making it there. Yes, I should feel secure in my allies and making it there with the alliance that I've stuck with this whole time, BUT! I know that if I've been considering all options, it would be stupid of me to not think they are doing the same as well. I think I need to make it there and honestly, I'm still unsure if it is going to be a F2 or a F3 so...I just need to make sure I have the right people that are going to be at each tribal to make sure they want to keep me. I would honestly love to keep my record of no votes!
Out of everyone left, who here would you not want to sit next to at Final Tribal Council?
I *think* my best bet may be sitting next to Xander, if I'm being honest. Everyone else has a shot of beating me, 100%. I wouldn't want to sit next to Abraham because he's been doing a great job in this game and has been extremely visible for positive reasons, such as winning immunities and being the poster for our OG tribe. I think Deshawn hasn't ruffled any feathers and has been doing a great job of playing the game, having strong alliances, winning when he needs to, and everyone seems to be pretty straight with him. That's a threat because I think people would want to see him win comparatively to someone like me. I think Leslie would beat me because she's been the sweet mom and has fought through each tribal council, getting votes every single time except last time I believe, and she's fought her way to get to this point; even though she really hasn't done that much except coast and socialize, I see her. JR is a threat because he's been doing things, stirring up trouble, competition beast, and he was able to get himself to this point not by voting correctly, but by being protected because there were bigger fish to fry and get out of here. I've always done my part in trying to let him know when votes could be coming his way and I couldn't tell him he was the decoy name last round because I couldn't have the Shan plan go off the rails + if it was leaked, it would definitely get pointed back to me. Either way, JR has his OG Kallpa votes, and I think that he would get a Sara + Heather vote at this rate if he was sitting there.
On a scale of 1 to 10, how much of a winning game do you think you currently have, and why? Anything you need to do to make it even better?
I think right now, the number that comes to mind is a 6. I feel like it's not necessarily a Scooby Doo FTC reveal. People know that I have been playing and I may not be everywhere, everything, all at once like an Abraham has but I'm doing something! I'm working with people and trying to be the information highway, but also being mindful of the information I share and with who. I realized I had to be careful with that type of shit when I got caught by Shan talking to Xander and Xander taking that back to Abraham. That should have been her clue that something was going on LMFAO but I mean, I shouldn't have opened my mouth. Now, I just try to keep information going as it needs to amongst the right people and giving all of the tea instead of just parts of it. I think that right now, I'm doing well in the social department and a lot of people are probably leaving feeling some type of way against me, but I'm also trying to nestle myself behind bigger targets than myself. Have we noticed that the last few times there have been challenges where you have to choose matchups, I'm like the last person to get chosen that hasn't gone every single time? I mean, I get out pretty fast BUT let's just pay attention to the fact that people are saving me for closer to the end. I think there's some sort of merit to that which I can capitalize off of. I've made everyone feel like my best friend, making them think I wouldn't turn on them and I'm feeding them information at the appropriate time so that way, they'll want to come and work with me over work against me. Last round, it kinda didn't work so I know that the next few rounds are going to be a bit difficult because right now, I know I've lost Leslie and I probably lose JR unless I try to do something with them this round. I think right now if I have it my way, I would try to get Deshawn out this round and then I would focus on JR and Leslie. I think I still want to go to the final 3 with Abe, but if there's a final challenge he's mopping me and Xander. I think Abe may need to go at 4 and then if it's a final 3, it's me, Xander and either Leslie or JR. Leslie would be better to go against, I think? If it's a final 2, I can still have Xander be there with me which I think would be good. I think if I could pull those moves, it would allow me to be at the top of my game or show that I was locked in BUT I had to prioritize myself.
Ponderosa is starting to fill up. Which current jurors do you believe would vote for you to win? Or would refuse to vote for you to win?
I think Heather would potentially refuse to vote for me depending on who is sitting next to me. I think if it was Abe, she may vote for me over him but she could vote for Xander over me. I also think Deshawn would beat me at a finale in any regards LOL. I don't think I have Erik's vote unless I can give him a compelling FTC speech, even then, I don't see it in my favor. I might have Jaime's depending upon the configuration of the funale. I also think Shan would vote for me to win right now mainly because she knows I was playing hard and we had each other's card, I just managed to pull the padge before she could get to me or people that are keeping me safe. Sara is a toss-up but I think if I explain to her that she had always been on my shit list after hearing what she said to Xander, I could probably explain it as you were the least close to me + threat to voting me out and I needed to eliminate people at which level I felt they would turn on me.
Finally, let's get an updated trust ranking list please!
1. Abe - he gets the top spot right now solely because of consistency sake with our conversations and our fill-ins. I think he's the next biggest threat behind Deshawn of course, but he's still been someone who has been fiercely loyal after I've shown loyalty to him multiple times.
2. Xander - he's still my F2 pick, and I do feel close to him but I'm not gonna sit here and lie, the relationship doesn't feel the same fiery nature it felt when we started this game. I feel like he's about to try and make a move and I want to be ahead of him on it.
3. Deshawn - he rounds out my 4 person alliance that has no name LMAO which is why he is here. I do trust that he wouldn't be coming for me, as he said that he wouldn't but I don't know if he's about to get squirrelly and jump. I don't know if it would be against ME, however, and that's something to bear in mind.
4. Leslie - she's the most transparent from the outside alliance and I do appreciate how real she keeps it with me, and I appreciate her taking time to fill me in and say that this is a man's game and I forgot that I have to fight that perception of me being EVVIE and not the person behind Evvie, which is annoying to have to consider. Let's not get into the gender politics of the bullshit, and I (also going on a tangent here) am also struck by the fact that I'm a Black man playing as Evvie who is white when I'm sure that the players behind Abraham and Deshawn are both not Black people at least from the vibe I get, so it's just interesting as a whole how those types of dynamics (maybe not race necessarily, but gender for sure) are coming into consideration here for a final vote. Anyway, Leslie is cool and I think she's great and she's very astute. It's starting to become a little scary though.
5. JR - I really don't want him in this spot, but we really don't have anyone else left! I think that JR is just doing what he can to try and stay in and have agency, and while that's perfectly fine, I don't know if his agency is going to want to keep me, Evvie, in the game longer term. I feel like everyone is looking at me to make a move right now to build some more of my own personal agency, but if I don't have to fight for it and things are going my way, why would I fuck things up? JR is someone who has been cool to talk with and get to know and I think I want to spend more of this weekend getting to feel out JR as the person, not the player. I do think he's beneficial to my longer term game but I have to make the right moves at the right times to set myself up. He's someone who I know would salivate at an assassination attempt on Abe or Deshawn, and I wonder if I'll be the bitch to give it to him.
Okay, I think my rambling is over - I have been writing this for over an hour and some change. Hope you all enjoy the read and I'm making you proud! I'm going to try to stay as lowkey as possible this weekend because the more you're around, the more sus you look but the more you're not around, the more you have potential to miss moves. It's not like I do anything else LMFAO so I'll just kinda play it by ear since this is the final stretch of the game.
