[Jean-Robert]

What’s up guys,

I have a lot of thoughts about how the game went down and kind of wanted to document my current thoughts about the past couple weeks. The day after being voted out is not fun, I was thinking about what I could’ve done differently and reading through the Ponderosa folder seeing how everyone else saw the game and what their individual experiences are like. I’m really proud and grateful for the reception I got upon arrival to Ponderosa. I felt like I was playing a good game socially and that I was well liked by some of the members of the jury, but I was really taken back by some of the positivity that came from some of the lurkers and especially Jeff (Poody). That was really awesome for me and truly did make me feel like I won the game of Survivor in way. I always wondered what kind of player I would be and when I was a pre merge boot in my Ohio State Survivor experience, I was a little bit nervous that the same would happen in this game and that I wasn’t going to be good at the game after all, even though I grew up watching and fell in love with it. While I’m a bit upset to not have taken this whole thing despite coming so close, am really proud of the game I played and the character that I was. I’ll be back soon to talk more about the game specifically and how I’m feeling about the Final 4, but for now, going to enjoy the rest of the July 4th holiday. Much love to everyone.

[Jean-Robert]

Ok so the final 4… 

Part of me is still a little salty about my exit because I genuinely don’t think it was everyone’s best move that decided to vote me out and there really wasn’t much I could do or say to sway them. However, I’m not going to be a bitter juror, I will be honest, and if that hurts people’s feelings, I don’t really mind. Gonna go one by one…

Leslie- I love Leslie and she has my vote if she can find her way into the Final 3. After Jaime was voted out of the game, Leslie was basically my other half and without her, I wouldn’t have had the game I had. I always said in my confessionals that if I found my way into the Final 3 that I would deserve to win and I feel the same about Leslie now that I’m out of the game. Coming into the merge with a 7-4 deficit and that being brought down to 7-2 made it highly unlikely for us to take it as far as we have in the game and merely being able to survive the way we did is impressive enough to earn my vote if she’s there in the F3. Unfortunately, I don’t have faith that she will get there without an immunity win, and she hasn’t won one yet, so that may be an issue.

Abraham- My arch nemesis. Abraham and I probably had the most unique relationship in this season, unless you consider Heather and I to be more interesting. I really do respect and appreciate his game even though he really pissed me off several times. He’s a very emotional player and I don’t really think he’s the best social player of the players remaining. But that being said, he has 3 immunity wins and my guess is he gets his 4th tonight and that’s hard to argue against come time for the final 3.

Xander- I’ll admit, I was a little harsh on the guy at my last tribal, but I kind of meant everything I said. It had come out the way it did because I was so frustrated with him after trying multiple times to get him to understand that I was genuinely trying to work with him and him repeatedly letting me down. I’m not gonna lie, he’s going to hear it further from me and probably many others on the jury. I don’t think he played a good game, he made personal decisions, and was never a trustworthy ally to anyone on the jury. The people he chose to align with called the shots and he never really had any true impact on the game, outside of fucking everyone over that would’ve helped his game personally. I’d say he’s a mortal lock for 3rd place because none of them are going to vote him out this round, as he is the weakest player left in the game.

Evvie- This is the hardest one for me to evaluate at the moment. Evvie frustrated the crap out of me during the game, probably more than you guys even realized. I ranted to her about how Abe and Deshawn treated me like a second class citizen when they tried to work with me and that was one of my more real conversations in this game. I remember feeling really good about how she responded and that made me want to work with her moving forward BUT the more I reflect on our relationship in this game, I realize that she basically did the exact same thing from that point on, and that was ultimately my downfall in the game. Everything that Evvie did was in first interest of her main alliance and she dragged me along on the way for as long as I didn’t cross her alliance. I will say that she made the right call voting me out at 5 because I wasn’t going to stay true to our deal at final 4, I was going to take Leslie and Xander to the end and just deal with losing her jury vote because I felt like the rest of my jury management would have secured me the win anyways. So I can’t say I blame Evvie for turning her back on me, but I do think she played a very impressive game. I would really like to get more closure and hear out her perspective before ruling out voting for her at FTC over Abe (voting for Leslie regardless). Should be fun to see what happens…