[Leslie]

He says what is the difference between 8th and 5th?? Well, if we get them to say one of their names, even if it isn't ours, than we can decide who we want to go with. If we just had been smart and told everyone we were good with Heather, we could have done the same thing we did in Kallpa. Get out the middle people or at least lower and figure out how we can get one of them out. If his crazy idea works, awesome, but his ideas have yet to work. So even though I have tried to be honest each time, it seems like he is listening now and hopefully will make a wiser choice. Because right now he is saying he wants to play hard, but he is playing way too hard right now for where we are at. I am sure trying to talk him down a bit, but we will see if he listens and at least kind of chills. Because just telling everyone yes is going to bite him in the ass. And by him, I mean me because he beat me at that stupid challenge. I am really hoping that if he slows down and we can try to have one of them be the one to say the name, we can make it so that it is not coming back on us. Also, the different between 5th and 8th? Well maybe, just maybe, I can go home after Heather. I will be pissed if someone on the majority who got two points tonight goes further than me.

[Leslie]

It seems like Evvie right now is deciding whether she wants to start fracturing from the boys and use Shan and I. I don't think she will this time, but lets say we do the easy thing. Take out Heather. The groups would be:

- Abraham, Deshawn, and Evvie
- Shan, JR, and me
- Xander and Sara

At that point, we could build trust with the three so hopefully at least one of them is honest with one of us, and we could hear what their plan is. But, we could use Xander and Sara in order to vote out whichever three we want. 

The big issue right now, is the fact that JR is saying lets go with Deshawn. It doesn't seem like Deshawn makes sense, because everyone loves and thinks they can work with Deshawn. Personally, I don't think this idea will work. my gut says that they will end up voting out me or Heather and keeping it easy. This would have been a much easier merge if JR hadn't met them early. Because it built up his ego and he seems to think that no one else realizes what is going on. Did he not see that I got second place? I know the call was to count his late answer, but if we consider that he didn't actually meet that expectation, he won by one and I second guessed on who is going out next. I thought they would go with the easy answer. So yeah, he won, but not by much. So I don't know why he is speaking to me like I am two years old and don't realize that the three are in charge. Like no shit. But none of the other people are willing to play hard yet. So go with what they are saying. Make them feel in control for one vote, and after we can start making big moves. It is silly that he doesn't recognize how this will bite him in the ass. Honestly, I don't understand how he doesn't see the fact that I am not an idiot. Like how silly that he is trying to explain that we need to make big moves at some point. Well, JR, good luck making good moves if no one trusts you and don't actually turn. Sorry for the big vent, but right now I am over it and really don't think this will work. Hopefully we can fact check with each other and figure this out so that we can figure it out.

[Leslie]

Also, I know we just have different play styles. It's not like his is bad. It just sucks because he is safe and it will end up biting me in the ass not him. It's just super different and he isn't willing to admit that mine isn't bad and makes me feel like he thinks I am an idiot which I know I'm not. I know I'm on the bottom right now.

[Leslie]

It is really important to me that I am not viewed as JR's puppet. I hate that he going around promising my vote. Like I was trying to stick with him, but my vote is my own. 

[Leslie]

I'm being pretty mean and blunt, for me, to JR. I get that he thinks he is in charge of the world, but I think he doesn't have a single vote. If I go out this week I want it to be going after someone I want to go after and I want Sara out because I think she is playing him. If I am going out, it is on my terms. Not on one of JRs plans that won't work because no one trusts him.

[Leslie]

If I go out because they don't go Sara I am totally okay with it. Because at least it is something I am trying to do.

[Leslie]

Well looks like I made the right choice. Because if I had flipped it would have been a tie. He didn't have the numbers. So I'm glad that I made that choice. I also feel like I don't want to be playing JRs game when he doesn't treat me like an equal and I can't trust Sara and Xander. I think I can trust Evvie and Shan. So idk. Maybe it's too under the radar, but I need to go with my gut.