Stranded in the Andes

This is the first officialday of your journey in Stranded! You'll have the weekend to get to know your tribe better, I suggest bonding well with each other over the coming days. There were questions in the pre-season confessional, but let's give a couple more.

1. The Tribe Leader is an intriguing position... what do you think it means? Would you want to be it or not? How do you feel of who gets it?
2. People are chatting it up today, so give us the deets: who are you vibing with, who are you more mellow on, etc?
3. Any plans for the weekend? Both in-game or out of it?

Trust me, when we say this game will get real intense and fast once the challenges begin to start after the weekend, we mean it. Good luck! And as always, feel free to type or speak whatever you want in here.

• The Tribe Leader is an intriguing position... what do you think it means? Would you want to be it or not? How do you feel of who gets it?

I am not sure what it means, but I 100% know I don't want it. I feel like in the show the leaders always go out quickly. I actually think Aaron is pretty cool, but I think he is DEFINITELY going to overplay. I am just happy that someone else volunteered. I like control, but I think it is way to early for that. I am wondering if there is a connection to Survivor China where there are swaps between the tribe for a day. We will see though!

• People are chatting it up today, so give us the deets: who are you vibing with, who are you more mellow on, etc?

Aaron - Seems super cool. Probably will go out pre-merge because he will overplay. I would love to work with him in the short term, but I don't want to be associated super closely because I really think he will overplay.
Denise - Denise seems so sweet. I think she is someone I can work with pre-merge as well. I don't feel super loyal to her, but I think I am definitely going to try to get pretty close with her.
Erik - Seems cool. Very chill. I want to get close to him because he doesn't seem like a huge threat and 
Frosti - This dude is just here to have fun it feels like.
Jaime - I LOVE HER! I feel like we 100% get along and are probably similar players. Definitely want to be careful with the information I share. I shared a bit about Aaron because that isn't huge. Curious if it will get back to him. A bit of a test to see if I can trust her. I don't want to let her know how much research I have done or too much information. She is definitely someone I could see myself going with until the end for the most part. I really think we are super similar. She is someone I would love to go along with as long as I can. I definitely couldn't take her until final three though most likely. Because we are so similar I want to try to get her to share the ideas so it seems like it is her idea. I definitely feel bad for not sharing everything with her, but it is definitely night one and I don't want to be stupid.
Jean-Robert - Inactive so far so no idea.
Sherea - Man, this girl is wild... I would love for her to go first. I don't want to look like I am playing to hard though, so we may need to send Jean-Robert first if he continues to stay inactive. Until I can get her out I will definitely try to be nice though. Definitely a unique individual. UPDATE: She is impossible to talk to. UGH.

• Any plans for the weekend? Both in-game or out of it?

I am planning on lesson planning for next year because I will be on maternaty leave for the beginning of the year. Other than that, I will try to get to know the other players and continue researching.

Well, while Sherea's general troll behavior feels extremely frustrating, Jean-Robert and Erik both seem to be mentioning strategy a lot and it is super early. They also were talking, so I'm not sure if they were able to connect on the topic of strategy. Definitely need to keep an eye on them. Mainly Jean-Robert. I think Sherea will more be an issue at the merge when she might decide to start playing. My guess is she is trying to stay super low at first. Could be wrong though. 

Oh! I HATE lying! I feel so bad. Jean-Robert asked to work together. What am I going to say, no?! Sure, JR. I'm interested! He does seem kind of nice, but SUPER strategic. I REALLY need to keep an eye on him because it was super random and totally sus. Sure he has talked to Erik and probably Aaron so far. Idk I'm not here for this. Hopefully we will not need to send anyone home soon, but damn if I won't do everything in my power to have it be JR if it continues this way. I'll definitely want to ask Jaime and see if he or anyone else suggests a alliance. It might be stupid to share with her this early, but I think she is someone that I can trust. I just feel like it would be a waste to get rid of someone like Sherea just because she is closed off/troll like... so far this is my list in terms of risky players. However, I also think that it is silly because right now I trust Jaime the most. I feel like she is someone who COULD mess up my game, but she is freaking amazing so I definitely don't think I need to worry about her. She seems genuine. 

Most risky:
1. JR
2. Frosti
3. Jaime
4. Erik
5. Aaron - i think it will be easy to get rid of him after the merge
6. Sherea
7. Denise

I cannot wait to see what Aaron must do. My guess as of right now is pick someone to send to the other tribe, but other people are thinking it's just picking who will play on Sunday. I am wondering if it is a tie to Survivor China though

So, ideas to mess with people. I just need to see if one of them could actually work.

A) title a chat "Lurkers" and see if they can actually create a chat. That way when there are lurkers on the group could be talking. But I would need to see if they would even be able to create a chat.

B) title a chat "Bros" if we feel unsafe. It could potentially be used if I am feeling unsafe. Going to see what Jaime thinks, but I think it could be good in order to throw a bit of confusion if we need it.

Welp, someone else created a chat called lurker and I was told that someone would be told whether a not a lurker created the chat so

Last time I shared, someone immediately implemented my idea and now we can't do it, so dang, but ill keep sharing LOL. If one of you immediately made a Lurker surver so we couldn't i think its freaking hilarious and I am here for it.

Dang, so much changed today. I still think JR and Sherea are sus, but I'm most worried about losing a girl because that would give the boys majority. Sherea opened up today and I definitely am not worried that she is trolling as much as I was at first, although she still is a wildcard.

Erik is wanting Sherea gone, but I don't think that's the right move. I think that Jaime is close with Frosti and I guess JR thinks we are close, so if we lose, Jaime can go to Frosti and drop Erik's name, and I can go to Sherea and say, "hey, Erik is saying he wants you so let's vote him" I think she would go along with it, and we could get Erik out. I could even go to JR and mention the plan. JR said that Erik is a cool dude, but I don't think JR is loyal to anyone but JR. I think if we lose, that would allow us to get Erik out, have a lead with the girls, and get either JR or Sherea out next. I think that might be the best move for Jaime and I, but honestly so much changes in a day so who knows. I think Erik might need to be the first move because its the easiest. After that we can worry about the wild cards or bigger threats. UGH

This one just relates to my faith and has nothing to do with game play so just heads up. Just kind of a bunch of random thoughts right now.

I'm a big music person and this song has been standing out to me so much in this season of pregnancy. I'm not sure why. Maybe just the fact that it's super freaking hard. I can't for sweet baby Hannah to be here though. It could also because this song is one of my biggest prayers. Just to show her the beauty, forgiveness, and peace that is found through Jesus.

This world can really suck and most people kind of if not downright terrible and the Church sure does it wrong 95% of the time, even with good intention. Because man does good intention not fix the pain that the Church as a whole has caused and man it can be so frustrating when the people who represent Christianity do things that feel so wrong. I literally make so many mistakes so often and I constantly am not patient, kind, or loving enough, and yet all I can do is say, "I know, I'm so freaking messed up, but look at the beauty that is in the story of Jesus Christ".

Anyways, I figured maybe one day I would show her this cool thing I had done, and I most definitely want to have these thoughts so that I can remember how I was feeling in this exact moment.

These are the lyrics:

Show You The Cross by Matty Mullins
"If you've been abandoned by the ones you trust the most
And you've built a wall around your heart to make sure no one else gets close
I could fill the air with empty words and hope that they would work
But nothing I could say would change the way you hurt
So I won't say another word
I'll show you the cross
With Jesus lifted high
I'll show you the grave
Where death was left behind
I'll show you a Savior
Who paid the highest cost
Show me all your scars
And I'll show you the cross
If you're on the outside, angry and lookin' in
You don't believe that grace could reach you in the places you have been
If all you know of truth and love are lies and hypocrites
Then nothing I could say would change the way it is
The only thing that I can do is this
I'll show you the cross
With Jesus lifted high
I'll show you the grave
Where death was left behind
I'll show you a Savior
Who paid the highest cost
Show me all your scars
And I'll show you the cross
Come as you are
Come as you are
Broken and bleeding
Come as you are
Come as you are
Find what you're needing
Come as you are
Come as you are
If you don't believe it
I'll show you my sins
Dead and washed away
I'll show you the grace
That led my heart to change
I'll show you a Savior who loved when I was lost
Show me all your scars
And I'll show you the cross
With Jesus lifted high
I'll show you the grave
Where death was left behind
I'll show you a Savior
Who paid the highest cost
Show me all your scars
And I'll show you the cross
Show me all your scars
And I'll show you the cross
Show me all your scars
And I'll show you the cross"

Well, thanks for reading if you did. Just had a bunch of thoughts that I wanted to remember from this time.

Thank you for sharing that with us, Leslie!

Thanks for being okay with my sharing all of my random thoughts :)

That's what these confessionals are for! Doing great

Okay, well I think I confirmed I cannot trust Jaime. I am doing one more test. I told her maybe we could create a pastwinners chat. I feel like if that shows up it will show that I cannot trust her for sure. So we will see. I had host confirmation the chats were player created so if it pops up I'll know it's her.

Okay, so I realize that most likely it was just a coincidence and that most likely Jaime is not messing with me, however, I want to make sure I know whether or not she is just messing with me/if I can trust her. They were made jlan hour or so after Jaime and I talked, so I just want to make sure I'm actually good sharing my ideas with her. So I realized I need some excuse to say oh, well maybe it was because of this, so I told her maybe we should make sure someone isn't messing with things, and see if someone does it again after we talk about it. So I told her another and said I'd put it in confessional so that I could see if it just so happened that the same thing we talk about. It could be coincidence, but I just want to do an extra test to see if I can trust her. I know I'm crazy, but

Well, I have been tracking who all is on when people are in the different chats, and everytime that someone is in it Abraham is on so he might be on it. Right now there are two people but I am not sure who the second person might be.

Great effort on the Puzzling challenge tonight. Please share your thoughts about the challenge and tomorrow’s vote with your avid lurkers.

1.            How did the challenge planning talks go down tonight, any surprises there?

2.            How do you feel about your own challenge performance?

3.            Who is being talked about for a potential vote tomorrow night?

4.            As you’ve been getting to know your fellow tribe members, are any working relationships forming?

UGH I AM SO ANNOYED. I needed to run to the restroom, but after I really quickly copy and pasted them all and was able to solve it. It took about five minutes. I could have done it much faster if there were only the 25 pieces. However, Frosti messed up and freaking did three copies of two of the images and twi of one of the others. So it would have been so much easier for people to solve had those duplicates not been made. UGH. As for the questions:

1.            How did the challenge planning talks go down tonight, any surprises there?
I was surprised by the fact that it took so long to figure out who was doing what. I offered to help solve, but no one was offering to transfer. So that sucks. Idk why someone who wasn't good with puzzles didn't step up for the transfering.

2.            How do you feel about your own challenge performance?
I did my job so I feel fine. I also have relationships so I should be good I think. I am not wanting someone else who was good to go. We need to get rid of Frosti if we have hopes of freaking not losing, but whatever.

3.            Who is being talked about for a potential vote tomorrow night?
Sherea. But she was the one who almost solved it so that is stupid. I don't care if she is the one who goes necessarily, but I think we should get someone out who didn't do well.

4.            As you’ve been getting to know your fellow tribe members, are any working relationships forming?
I am closest with Jaime. I think JR and Aaron are popular though, so I am trying to throw out the idea in a way that is like I don't care because I am not close with her, but also I checked and while the puzzle was solvable, Frosti messed it up. It sounds like Aaron is still thinking Frosti and so if they are saying Sherea I guess that is what I will do. UGH. But yeah, makes sense. Lets vote out someone who did well. I feel like it would also just be better for my game if I could continue forming the bond with her because not many people are trying I don't think. Just super frustrating.

I think it is so good that people don't know Jaime and I are together. They will answer us and we can see who is being honest and who is telling people different stories. Sadly, it looks like we will be getting rid of the better players which I personally think is stupid, but whatever. Hopefully we can start winning.

I know I was extremely weirded out by her at first, but Sherea started to open up and it was fun talking with her about momma stuff. A bit disappointed we are getting someone out who is actually good at the challenges, but whatcha gonna do?

I was so surprised that JR didn't show.