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I will definitely do a video for an exit. Mainly because I have new videos of Hannah and I cannot help but want to show off my baby girl because it shows her face! YAYY! I will also post thoughts tomorrow once I get some sleep! :) I was hopeful I could make it to the end, but honestly I was getting so tired and definitely was struggling with it all and being worried about how everyone was viewing me. So I am very happy that I can just enjoy the rest of the season. Maybe one day I can do it again if you guys will have me! I definitely learned SO MUCH from this season and I absolutely love this game even if I am complete shit at challenges LOL.
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Well, here are my thoughts! I will probably do more without a video because I really don't do a great job expressing my thoughts out loud. Idk why. I am literally a teacher so I need to talk out loud all the time, but it is just different haha. So, he was my try and baby Hannah's picture that I just kind of threw up on the screen for a few seconds LOL. Please ignore the fact that I am exhausted LOL. For the past month, I definitely haven't been able to sleep because when I am asleep Hannah is basically throwing a party while I am trying to sleep. But last night I got a full hour of sleep at one point so that was pretty awesome. 😎 HAVE I MENTIONED THAT I CANNOT WAIT TO LISTEN TO THE PODCAST?

https://youtu.be/DNIjb3LpRRM
 

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Thanks for sharing this video! 😍 and thanks for showing us Hannah she's looking good, love our double face reveal for this vid! :D

Always nice to see your end thoughts, never feel pressured to show face or talk (though the reunion might have some of that with your fellow castmates haha). Happy to see you're getting rest now and to see you're excited for podcast and post-game stuff
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I don't think I will mind as much for the reunion stuff just because there will be other people and it's a conversation. I think it's mainly just the part where I'm talking to a screen that feels really weird. 🤣
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I am very excited to be part of the jury for this tribal council. It is interesting because I see how some people are saying Xander had a better social game. I do think that is very true. He was able to keep JR and I from realizing he was the one who was messing things up, and also was able to be friends with almost everyone. I think Abe obviously dominated in the challenges. I am so excited to see their answers to all these questions. Being on the bottom and not super relevant to their plans, I am curious to see if they were paying attention to who everyone was connected with. I know that he had connections between me and Deshawn, Evvie, and Abe, but they were most definitely not my closest connections in the game. He also did make note of the fact that I was trusting Shan, but I am curious to see if he picked up on the fact that Shan, JR, and I were super close. Because he did mention the Evvie/Shan alliance that I wanted, and I definitely trusted Shan the most out of them all, but I am interested in seeing. Because I definitely tried to make it seem like I was significantly closer to Abe and Deshawn than I was. So I am just curious if either of them was being super observant or can determine who I was closest with when I wasn't one of the major players. I know that I was constantly trying to connect people, but I wasn't sure if Abe just didn't include me as much because I wasn't relevant. Might not matter to most people, but I am curious if they were paying attention. Super proud that this was my first ORG, and I will DEFINITELY steal the idea of all of the visuals for future ones LOL. That would be so fun for myself to see if I was right! JR really drove me crazy, and I wanted to differentiate our game, but I was never actually mad at him enough to vote him out. Even if sometimes in split seconds in confessional I would be like I am so mad right now LOL. I don't think I could have done that. I was happy that he put contention between the two of us hehe. Also, I am so excited to talk with Shan and Jaime about mom stuff when this is over LOL. I miss the messaging!
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I really don't want to annoy the jurors too much. I definitely am curious about what they think on some stuff, but don't want to bother them. I am so interested in some of what is happening. I feel like Abe has tried to start doing jury management now and I think it is super interesting that Xander MAY be trying to point out the fact if he had deep relationships with everyone, it is possible he had deep relationships with pretty much no one. I am interested if that was purposeful or if he really was just kind of hurt and venting. I'd like to think maybe he is trying to point out Abe's weaknesses. Interesting for sure. It is difficult because I don't believe Abe got lucky in terms of people going along with him, because it is clear he put in a lot of work, but it is interesting that he took people for their word to the extent he did. I wonder if he feels like he was most people's #1 and didn't realize that it wasn't necessarily the case, or if he is trying to make people feel like he really trusted them by his comments. I think Abe is very aware of how others played for the most part, but Xander seems to have a better understanding of his flaws. Abe will own the mistakes we noticed, but he continues talking about how he dominated and was the biggest threat for pretty much all of the merge. I don't agree with that. I think he was one people wanted to get out because he could win, but Deshawn was a way bigger threat to all of us. I think some people had a small chance against Abe. But I think truly not a single person would have won against Deshawn. I really think socially Xander did better. I think Evvie and Deshawn really protected Abe. It wasn't relationships with others that protected him, but not wanting to make those two mad. So he clearly did pick good relationships, but what about his lack of jury management?

Xander did not win any idols and "only" one challenge, but funny enough because before I really would have been dead set against voting for Xander, did they have a more well-rounded game? They both outlast everyone, but I am going to think about their outwit and outplay. I don't think I realized how connected Xander was and I definitely didn't give them any credit. I thought they were just carrying Xander, not that they had a serious final 3. It would be different if Evvie and Abe said they weren't a serious final three but just thought they could beat Xander. Super interesting. I thought it would be way easier than it is turning out to be. I just want to make sure I vote for the person who really played a well rounded game.

Abe
Outwit
- he was able to trick people at first with making a lot of people making them feel close, but it backfired because only Xander and Evvie really thought he would protect them at the end. We may have accidentally made his ego a bit too big with trying to make him worry about his people turning on him, but overall people like Sara and Heather really thought he was closer with them. That is impressive.

outplay - he got the only idols and he was able to win like five challenges.

Xander
Outwit - they made everyone think they weren't connected with Evvie, Deshawn, and Abe. I questioned if had a relationship with Deshawn at one point, but they hid that SO well. That is really impressive because maybe people realized they were close with Evvie but I had no idea they had a serious F2! That is pretty impressive. They also were able to get everyone to think they were being true to his word. JR and I hadn't realized that they wasn't voting with us until it was impossible for them to hide the fact. That is super impressive. They were even able to hide from Sara that they hadn't voted with Sara for Abe. Sara really thought Xander stayed true to the end.

outplay - they did win a challenge which is more than I could freaking do.

Question, can they still IM each other?
 

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Thank you! I was assuming they could, but I wasn't 100% positive. Thanks again!
 

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Xander clearly didn't have a super close read on me. He thought I was close with Sara and I literally didn't trust Sara at all. Also, it seems like Xander never realized that I had been protecting Shan when she voted for them. Xander played a lot of us, but I can't tell if it was because they were being smart or just making silly moves that didn't make sense. I don't want to write them off because it is possible they were being smart. I really need to see their answer to Evvie's question. 
 

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I don't know if you guys do revotes or go to rocks, but to hear that Xander would have stuck with two powerhouses makes me think that they really were more just Abe's number. I'm glad they were honest, but if they would have just gone with the numbers, it does make me think they really were willing to make a move if they had the opportunity and it would have still allowed them to be part of a strong three (JR, Sara, and them). I don't like that Abe is so cocky, because I don't think he did a "villian" game. Abe didn't come in saying, "hey, I wanted to be a villain and that is why I made some of the choices I did." It just feels like he just felt he assumed we would all just bow down to the fact he won. I do think it was silly that they didn't flip on him, but I don't think his game was as great as he is selling it. I get why Xander would stay, it worked well for them, but I really respect players who make big moves. I don't think either of them "needed" to make big moves. I know Abe thinks that JR and I "happened" to vote right with Deshawn, but I'm confused about him saying it was his plan the entire time when he told me he would never do it. Just confusing more than anything. Maybe he didn't trust me, but it just feels like that doesn't add up to me. I really wish Evvie had made it to the end. Because these two are difficult. As a rule, I do not like people are so cocky that they can't see the people who helped them get where they were. It seems like Abe is willing to say positive things, but it feels like last minute jury management. Not really genuine. I feel like unless Xander makes me feel like they weren't just a number for Abe, I'll definitely be voting Abe. Xander had better jury management even though they lied to a lot more players, it feels like Abe had better control of Xander at least. I don't think Abe controlled everyone like he thought he did, but at least for Xander, it seems like between Evvie and Abe, Xander was just a number.
 

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I want to vote Abe, but I really don't want him to think that he won by a landslide. Idk what other people are doing, but if most votes are for him, I want him to know it was difficult.
 

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I want to be honest without being overly mean LOL. Idk why the final vote phrasing is stressing me out. I think this should be good enough. :)
 
 

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