Thanks guys, I got what I was looking for from both of you. I wanted to know what you both thought you knew about me, because relationships are the core of a lot of the jury's problems with both of you, but for different reasons. Xander, I think you read me correctly-- we didn't click for whatever reason, and neither of us wanted to pour our energy into fake relationships. I think I said in my confessional on night one that you would be my downfall, and how hilarious is it that I was right.

I appreciate your answer-- at least the first attempt, I think you might have been smoking for the second one.

I'm annoyed you took me out but I obviously can find no fault in you for it because I was dying to do the same to you. No ill will here, but I'm not sure if it's enough to get my vote.
Abe, I'm a little disappointed in you, honestly. You, Evvie, Leslie, and JR are the people I clicked with on a really personal level, therefore the four of you didn't get "Shan" you got the real me. I'm not entirely sure why, if you really had thought about it for even two minutes, you would think that the dominating gamebot strategy is a game I would respect. Funny enough, I don't watch Survivor. I've played a lot of orgs but am not a fan of the show, so your perception of what I would respect is wrong, and I guarantee you are the only one of the four people who would have gotten that wrong. This is why I struggle with rewarding your game-- your charts and graphs, the analyses, you thought of us all like data. And I think that's where a lot of the hurt feelings are coming from, because nobody else seems to have removed the human element from their games as much as you did and it stings to feel like we were being real with someone who was just constantly using us as calculations. I realize this is the part where you step in and refute that and talk about your personal connections with everybody, which I don't deny. The part about how you used to send me links to the threads because I'd be rocking my kid to sleep at challenge start times was very real and so incredibly kind-- but it feels devalued now because it was just means to an end. And really, you can't claim both-- you either played this dominating calculated game, or you played a personal one. Trying to claim to ride the line between both won't help anything-- you took a chance on your gameplay, and with me at least I'm not sure that you made the right call.
There's no direct questions in this but if either of you feel like responding, feel free. I've been angry with both of you for different reasons and sworn I would never vote for either of you for different reasons, and I'm still struggling.